Thank You

I have been thinking (there's a first) about the people I have met in my life lately. I have heard on more than one occasion how you can learn something new from everyone you meet, in fact I can even recall a famous quote saying that you should cherish every chance encounter, because each is an opportunity to gain new knowledge....or something to that effect. Anyway it got me thinking that I need to start looking at this and really acting upon it. When I think about it even people that I have had bad relationships or encounters with, it did give me the chance to understand or experience something new (once my anger subsided of course). So to all my friends and enemies I say thank you for giving me the chance to experience the variety in life. I am especially grateful to a few select people, such as my best friends (especially F)--- thank you for allowing me to understand that I don't have to change to find that special loyal friend who will accept me and all my goofy, boring, bizarre, and not so so bizarre moments. To the first guy I ever considered spending my life with, although it did not work out I still say thank you. Before you I had trust issues about men and I had a hard time imagining that I would be able to feel that way, but you changed that. Now I am more open and receptive and appreciative of the opportunity to be with someone who is willing to stand by my side and build a future together and although I have not found him yet, I know that the possibility is there. Thank you. To my third grade teacher Mrs. Patricia Baugh from Camp Allen Elementary---Thank You. You were so instrumental in harnessing my creativity and passion. You made me realize that certain things were possible and acheivable, and you were the only one perceptive enough to notice that I was a blind little bat who desperately needed glasses lol. You were a wonderful teacher and I only hope you can read this and know how much I appreciate the impact you made on me. Lastly to my group of aquaintances those who I know in real life and those who I know thru the net, you are such a group of diverse individuals from different backgrounds and I thank you for allowing me to know a little bit about the many different people who make up this world. Whether we agree or disagree you allow me the chance to expand my knowledge of the world... There is no need to express here my graitude for the lessons and support I have recieved from my family especially my mother (who I have inherited alot of my traits from) because words are not nearly enough. Of course I am aware that anything I have learned and received is a blessing from our exalted creator so I strive to always remember him and remain humble about any knowledge I have gained.

"What about your friends? Are they gonna stand their ground? Are they gonna let you down?"

I am the type of person who does not need to have a huge group of people who I call friends just for popularity reasons, I have never been that way. This is not because I am not sociable and don't attract potential friends, it is actually quite the opposite, it is rather by choice. The few good friends I have, are like family to me; we have been though thick and thin, we laugh, we cry, we give advice, and the occasional loan lol. So that is why when I meet a new person, who wants to automatically cling to me and say we are bosom buddies, it makes me a little skeptical. To me, and this is my motto in any type of true relationship, whether it be your lover, friend, or family member, "you have to surrender the me for the we." I read that quote once and have sited it ever since, because I believe it is so true. If you want your relationship to work you have to be unselfish and think about the other persons feeling and needs as well. If you want to call yourself my friend, then I should not be the only one who is doing all the giving in the relationship. I know some people who want you to be there for them when they are going through a crisis, you must hang out where and when they want, and be there for them at the drop of a hat, but when it is time to return the favor, they go AWOL or deaf, dumb, and blind. These are what I call "friends when it is convenient", or "seasonal friends" who change so often. I would rather refer to these people as associates, but these are the folks who seem to insist that you are friends. However when the test of true friendship comes along, they never seem to pass. When a minor meaningless tiff occurs in the relationship, and that person then considers you a mortal enemy; it was never a real friendship to begin with. With a real friend, the minor disagreements, are overcome eventually. One personal example I had was when one of my best friends and I were still teenagers, and we had an altercation that involved some other friends, and the usual teenage-girl drama, we went almost a month without speaking although we missed each other (as was secretly confided by our mother's reports lol). Eventually I decided to be the bigger person and initiate conversation again, because I loved her like family and really valued her friendship. We have been even more close ever since. That's my definition of real friendship: Loyalty, Understanding, Respect, and the willingness to always make it work even though the rocky moments. What's yours?

My Response To a Question at Yahoo Questions Concerning Facebook

Can someone help me understand facebook? I tried creating an account just for fun but it makes no sense to me. It's not easy to search for other members and view their pages. I just don't get it. I created a myspace account and it was pretty user friendly, so I expected this to be easy as well. I haven't been on since my initial sign up. Any suggestions?------------------------------------------- Facebook is about connecting with people who are within your network, in other words your regional area. If you don't already have friends at Facebook, then you can join a school network, work network, or a geographical network. This does not mean you cannot connect with people outside you network. Facebook has tons of fun groups and with members from different networks around the world. Once you join a group, you can share ideas and meet more buddies through your different groups. In addition they have many downloadable applications that you can add to your profile page such as glitter text, games, youtube etc. much like the things you can add at Myspace, only a little more classier. You can also go to www.widgetbox.com and get different applications to add to your Facebook page as well.~~Wasaski My Journey

Early Morning Ramblings; Too Much Clutter; I Need My Space

I went to Myspace to try to IM one of my buddies there ( the only reason I got the account) and I was soo turned off by the website. I really don't know why I am creeped out by the place, and it seems so cluttered as well. It took me forever just to try and send an IM. I can honestly say I definately prefer Facebook over Myspace. But I will try and keep the account active, because I don't think I can convince my 2 buddies to come to Facebook. My Journey

More Pictures From This Morning

Love it Love it Love it! Here are more pics I took of Ms. D. (the ex-coworker who I made the special trip out to see; her personality reminds me of how grandmother's was) and some more fabrics. I had plenty more beautiful ones, but I could not upload them all.

This Morning (9/10/07/)

This morning, I was suppose to go to my interview today, but I had to reschedule due to car related issues. I had to postpone my payment for this month :( and the dealer said that is fine, because I have been making my payments in a timely manner up until now, but (there is always a but) there is nothing he can do to keep my car from turning off and locking down. Many new car dealerships are installing those electronic devices on the cars that will automatically shut the car off, after so many days of the payment not being made. I will be without the use of my car for about a week and a half :( I am at the mercy of my sister who also works overnights, but at a different job, to take me to work, and I will walk back home in the morning. I am not looking forward to this next week and a half....

This morning I also decided to visit a few old coworkers (who were quite happy to see me) at my old job. Going there now is bittersweet. In some ways I miss the place, because of a few people, but at the same time I still have some resentment towards the way I was treated by the company. One thing I miss, but I am glad that I am not around to see it, is all the wonderful textiles. I love fabric! I love coming up with different ideas and designs. However I am glad I am not surrounded by it at work anymore, it keeps me from spending money I do not have. I did splurge a little today and brought 3 small pieces mainly for my bags. I did not feel too guilty either as I have not brought fabric in a very long time, and it is rare for me to have even $5.00 to spend on myself. I didn't really have it to spare today either, but I made an allowance for my actions. Funny how that works....,.

Too much web helps to keep my spanish up--Introducing Facebook

I know my post titles can be a bit of a conundrum sometimes but that is the way I like it ;).

Not too long ago I joined Facebook because a contact of mine invited me there. I like the place a little too much now I think :S Although I am not like some of those people who live, love, and long for anything MySpace and Facebook related. I like to keep my life exposed to a minimum. I don't invite or accept invitations from everyone in the world to be buddies at these places, I keep my buddy list to a very modest number, and alot of my info is set to private. In fact I never wanted a MySpace account because I did not like the publicity I would see and hear about it. I only recently got an account there because I have too real life buddies who love MySpace and that is one way I keep in touch with them. My MySpace profile is pretty dead through I just joined and that is pretty much it. No fancy pages or anything, and if I can convince them to come to Facebook I will probably disable my account. I don't know what scares me about that site, it just is not my favorite place to interact. I know that there could be plenty of weird people lurking at Facebook as well, but it just does not scare me as much as MySpace and it seems to have just a tad bit more class.

Well anyway I added an application at Facebook that allows me to have a new Spanish phrase a day displayed on my profile. I loved this idea, because when I was in school I majored in Spanish with a minor in Asian studies, I was able to study Chinese reading and writing for a year. That was like a dream to me, I've always loved languages. Every since I was about 9 yrs old, I've pretended that I could speak Spanish. I would walk around the house answering my family's questions or asking them questions in Spamish (that's made up Spanish). I don't know what first attracted me to the Spanish language or Asian languages either. I just took an interest to it. That is why I was so surprised my mother was shocked when I decided to change my major to foreign language during my college career. I've always wanted to know at least 6 languages. But since I've been out of school I have not been keeping up with my studying, and I have forgotten a majority of the language I did learn. That is why I decided to add the Spanish phrase application. Just a fun way to learn a new phrase everyday. I will post it, every time I post here. ......

Other languages I would love to learn: Arabic, Japanese, Russian, Korean, Tagalog and Swahili