A Breath of Fresh Air

Woah! I can't believe I have been away from blogging for sooo long!; not that I did not want to blog, circumstances permitted me from doing so. I hope to be back in the swing of things from now on, although I probably will not blog everyday, but I will try to keep it updated at least once a week. I also will be changing the look of my blog soon and trying a couple of new formats to include. I have been online all day today!! (too much) but at least it wasn't just for leisure. I had to put in my resume with a couple of places, fill out a FAFSA form, and do some other research; my only guilty pleasure was I visited my Facebook page:) (my favorite social networking site). Off to bed in a bit as I have to get up in a few hours to do that Wally World thing...yes unfortunately I still work there :( On another note I just had the chance to really research the rules for the proposed tax rebate, and am happy to find out that I should be getting one as well! (Yea Me!!!) Last time we had a rebate I was not eligible, but this time I am looking forward to the possiblity of the extra money. I have alot of important uses for the extra funds, just need to rank them in level of severity. Which begs me to ask the question what do you plan on doing with the your rebate check?

Honey, I'm Hoommeee!

It has been over a month since I have blogged! I was facing serious withdrawals in the beginning, next came denial and finally I reached acceptance. I must say though that it feels good to blog again. I have actually had the chance to read a few of my favorite blogs, and am happy to see that others are still blogging. It has been an interesting month. Some things have changed, and yet much is still the same. I am still struggling along, but choosing to remain hopeful for my future even when it seems that I will not have a bright one. This is the time of the year when work is the busiest, and the customers are at their worse. Yesterday was the infamous "Black Friday" and at Wally World it was definitely an adventure. We had to play policemen to our pallets of freight that was going to be included in the big doorbusters for 5am. We had a line that was wrapped around the store for the flat screen TVs that were on sale. Not to mention all of the lines that were stationed at the pallets for some of the hottest toys for the season that were included in the sale. Once 5am hit and we were to cut away the shrink wrap from around the pallet, the best and safest thing to do was to move! I saw one of my coworkers almost trampled under the crowd who dived on the Transformer action figures. People were literally wrestling and elbowing their way to what they wanted. Later I found out there was at least 2 fist fights over some items on the other side of the store. As I made my way to other parts of the store I would see one of my co-workers and say, "You're still alive!"In addition to our normal security guards, we had 3 additional Police officers at the doors to make sure nothing was stolen in the frenzy, because believe me there are those people who use that day as the perfect time to load up on "free items." Once 7am arrived I was free to leave the asylum, and I went to breakfast with a co-worker of mine, which was a necessary wind-down and time for some reflection of the previous activities of our shift. Sometimes I just can't believe the lengths people will go to for "stuff." Sure there are things I wouldn't mind having, but I think sometimes we really need to be a little less materialistic in this society. I really believe that when you are gone from this world, it will not matter how much "stuff" you leave behind, but the good deeds and positive impact you had on the world that will remain legendary.

What's in a name?

I was surfing around at blogthings.com and found a couple of fun tests that I wanted to take and here they are, some of it seems pretty accurate....

What Wasaski Means

W is for Wise A is for Astounding S is for Savvy A is for Athletic S is for Spontaneous K is for Keen I is for Intense

What Does Your Name Mean?

You Are A Green Girl

You feel most at home in a world of ideas. You're curious and logical - and enjoy a good intellectual challenge. You're super cool, calm, and collected. Very little tries your patience. Your only fear? People not realizing how smart and able you are!

What Color Girl Are You?

Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Electricity

You're highly reactive, energetic, and super charged. If the occasion calls for it, you can go from 0 to 60 in a split second. But you don't harness your energy unless you truly need to. And because of this, people are often surprised by what you are capable of. Why you would be a good superhero: You have the stamina to fight enemies for days Your biggest problem as a superhero: As with your normal life, people would continue to underestimate you

What Should Your Superpower Be?

You Are Fall!

Thoughtful Expressive Creative Poetic Smart

What Season Woman Are You?

You Are Paper

Crafty and creative, you are able to adapt freely to almost any situation. People tend to underestimate you, unless they've truly seen what you are capable of. Deep down, you're always scheming and thinking up new plans. Your mind is constantly active. You are quite capable of anything you dream of. You can always figure out a way to get what you want. You can wrap a rock person up in your sheet of trickery. A scissor person can sneak up and cut you to pieces. When you fight: No one can anticipate your next move If someone makes you mad: You'll attack them mercilessly when they're unprepared

Are You Rock, Paper, or Scissors?

Your Beauty Element is Air

You're quirky, fresh, and fashionable in a surprising way. You have a beauty that's all your own, and it changes as quickly as the wind!

What's Your Beauty Element?

You Are the Super Ego

While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all. You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously. Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself. You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

My blog and I suffer when I do not blog

Wow this limited Internet access thing is getting a little old :S on the bright side I have been able to focus a little more on my goals that I am trying to reach I have completed some bags and taken pictures, that I will be posting soon (well eventually) provided I get the website issues taken care of. I feel like it has been months since I have last blogged. I have much I would like to blog about, work, new people= new drama; so much tension there you could cut it with a knife, and how did I manage to get loosely mixed up in it??, my real and not just figurative progress I have made with my project, small little baby steps, but steps nonetheless. I have only had time to read a small selection of my favorite blogs, and am hoping for the day when I can have unlimited Internet access again and am able to read some of your blogs and vent on my own blog whenever and wherever I want. Right now I have to dash, as I have a lunch date with a friend of mine who I have not seen in years....Updates coming....eventually.

My Peepz

As I have said from the beginning of starting this blog that one of my intentions behind wanting to have my own business and be successful, was because of my family---the people I grew up with and have went through the good and the bad with. I come from a big family I have 8 siblings. 3 brothers, and 5 sisters (we girls have always ruled). We have our moments when we get on each others nerves, but we are pretty close and are there when it matters. But I think that big families have a different type of close bonded relationship than smaller families, not that they love more, but the structure is different, and there is definitely a hierarchy system amongst the siblings. I am the third oldest; we range from the oldest at 30 to the youngest at 14. We did not have alot of material things growing up, but I still don't feel like I was deprived of any important worldly possessions, because when you don't have much as a child, but you have alot of siblings, you can be very creative and still have lots of fun. I especially enjoyed always having someone to blame when something went wrong lol Oh! the mind games we played on my younger siblings when they were little kids lol innocent of course nothing traumatizing. The siblings have always been divided into 3 sets, there is me and my older brother and older sister, and we were always known as the "3 older ones" then we have the next group of 4 (of which 2 are twins) which we originally use to refer to as "the babies" until the last 2 came and they became the "4 little ones" and then the last 2 which we referred to as "the babies" I know some other big families, and they say that they too have some sort of system, and most big families I know are very close-knit. It has been very rare for me to find a big family that is not close. Although my siblings can drive me insane most of the time, I wouldn't let anyone hurt any of them and I love them warts and all.....

Tornado Watch

I am experiencing a whirlwind of emotions right now, boring stuff, but I will post it anyway as I am taking advantage of these few rare moments when I can blog.

1. I have just been blessed with another nephew, my bro and my sister-in-law have just had a little boy yesterday, to add to the little girl they already have.(This adds to the 2 nephews and 2 neices that I have thru my older sis) He is so adorable, he wighed 6lbs 10oz, but my sister-in-law said he was a more difficult delivery then my niece (that does not surprise me as my younger brother has always been a real pain lol like father like son). So I am happy about that.
2. I also am happy because I have actually made real progress with my bag(s) construction last night, I can see some light at the end of the tunnel, if only I can keep myself on track and not divert from my current direction, I will be that much closer to my giveaway contest and actually displaying them on the websitethatIneedtofinishbutcan'tbecauseIhavelimitedaccesstotheInternet.
3. Now for my frustration: work as usual is the main source; too much drama there, and I am having to try and pick up an extra day or two, because I am going through a financial crisis (what else is new) and have one day left before my license will be officially suspended for not having any insurance on my car :( because I can't afford the freakin payment right now arrrggghhh! The worst thing about working a crappy job is when you try and get those extra hours (not overtime mind you, the company shuns this, and will threaten termination if you do incur the O.T.) you end up killing yourself and when you get the paycheck you see maybe an extra 10 to 15 dollars after taxes! So those are the main culprits for my anguish right now, but I will try and drudge through as usual and keep the hope that I eventually things will get better. Once you've reached rock bottom, you can either stay there, or claw your way back up.

Another quickie

If you are ever able to make it into blogger's blogs of note category, I guess you aren't doing too bad. Some of the ones I have checked out, are not that great, but there are a few blogs that I found through the blogs of note and have been hooked ever since. They are Bent Objects , Print and Pattern , and Basic Instructions So if you ever are looking for a good read, check out blogs of note, you might be surprised at what treasures you may find.

Longing

• I dream I am walking.
• Walking in the desert; nothing around me or behind me.
• Nothing except the white warm sand.
• I am not hot, nor do I feel any discomfort.
• My clothes are clean and light.
• I am traveling alone, but I am not worried or lonely.
• My soul feels free and cleansed.
• Further ahead of me I can see a well of water and the sun shining beautifully.
• I do not look away, for the sun does not blind me; it welcomes me.
• I am not thirsty, but the well is there for me.
• I go forward, with no afterthought of what I leave behind.
• For what awaits me is far better than what I leave.
• The end of anguish and the beginning of never-ending bliss.

Is age just a number?

Ok this is another one related to Wally World. As I said before Wally World has the nickname Club Wally World, because so many people use it as a meeting and hangout place. I've also mentioned that many associates, mostly the females have to deal with the advances of some of the customers as well as their fellow associates. On the overnight shift we have quite a few young guys that are between 18-20 and that does not stop them from making passes at some of the females that are slightly older, or more than slightly older. One comment I am tired of hearing from some of them is, "age is just a number." But is it really? Many of these 19 year old guys who say this act pretty immature. And no I do not say this because they like to have fun or goof off, (heck even I can be pretty goofy when I am with my friends) but most of them are still at that stage where they have not yet left boyhood. I have seen maybe 2 exceptions there. They don't yet understand that there is a difference in being young and not stuffy, and just plain childish. I think there are times and circumstances when age does not matter, but for the most part it does play a big part on the relationship.

• What do you think do you really think that age is just a number? I am more interested in this from the older female younger guy perspective. But you can comment on both angles.

My maternal instincts are in overdrive

I think my maternal instincts are growing even more stronger. I mentioned in this post that seeing children suffer really makes me cry. I can't watch a Feed The Children infomercial without crying the whole way through, or seeing sickly children, or homeless children. Now I am even getting choked up when it is something happy. For example my niece was watching Disney Channel and I happened to catch one of the commercials, and it was showing a little girl who is into photography, like her father, whom is a professional photographer. At the end of the commercial she expressed that her dream was to one day collaborate on a photography book with her dad. I don't know why, but at that moment, I was completely choked up and moved to tears. I started thinking, "oh man, why am I crying." I mean I know it was touching but sheesh. I truly think that for most women at some point in their lives, if they have not had kids yet, their biological clock starts ticking more rapidly. It's like your body is trying to tell you that someday soon you will have to deal with menopause and you may want to consider having a child or two, before it becomes hard or too late. I know I am only 26, but once you reach 30, it gets more difficult with the passing years.

• What do you think? Do you think that women do have a biological clock that they begin to become more aware of at some point in their lives?

Another sneak attempt...

It is early morning and I am blogging, but it will not be much as I am having to sneak this one in as well. I just have a few quick questions and ideas that have been in my head for a few days. So on that note here comes....

Final Thoughts for the day...

I have had the chance to go and read a few of my fav blogs and leave comments, but not all, I hope to soon have normal access to the Internet, and not be on a C.I.VAC. When I once again have access to blog regularly, it will be business as usual. In the meantime, I am working and making progress with my bags slowly but surely. Well...it is now about time for me to go back to Wally World (read previous post for related matter) Until next time.....

It has been 9 days since I have blogged

Wow it has seemed like an eternity since I last blogged. I have very limited access to the Internet right now....heck to a computer right now. I feel like I could write so much, but I will do that when I have regular access again (I am sneaking this opportunity). I am blogging this early in the morning because I am on an extra long break from Wally World. We were called to a meeting at 11:30pm only to be told that they forgot to let us know that they would be doing some electrical work and that they wanted us to clock out at midnight, and return at 3:00am :O Some people said they did not plan on coming back, of course this was not within earshot of management. I will go back as I would rather come back for an additional four to five hours, then come in on a day off and make up the time. That is one reason I decided to blog; to stay awake ;)